traffic oddly enough stopped bothering me so much. i guess it had something to do with fixing my car radio... not sure, maybe i am just expecting more than usual. would this mean i have developed a negative outlook on life? reading through prior blog entries, i learnt that i am indeed not the positive jumpy freak i used to be, and i think it has little to do with maturity and more with learning about reality.

funny how your attitude changes when you realize how fucked up this world really is, and how little control you have to change it. regardless of all the motivational speaker and marketing agents acting up like polititians. is there a better world outside? away from this HIV infested hell hole? i think what gets me most is realizing that i might never know. never....?

i can see this entry is going to change into an is there a god one, so i'd rather just stop now. but know this, changing your stars is not like taking out the garbage... even on a rainy day.

after another miserably failed attempt to restart blogging, i am back again. not much hope this time round either. work, although lots of fun, is keeping me from free time, blog time during office hours.

the photo hobby is taking shape, and i have learned that i like street photography. street photography, not candid street photography. remotivated and inspired, it'll work this time around.

i hope.