i dreamt about sara last night. actually this morning. i miss her so much today. i have never forgotten about her, but stopped thinking about her. the dream was so nice, so real, i was so in love, even more than i was then. everything was so perfect, more perfect than it was back then, much more.

went to the carousel friday night, watched the feather babes do their thing, have their fun and partied like an irresponsible teenager. went wild till the sun decided to start the next day, and the body aches, pains and sand in the eye feeling.

back at work today i still carry the battle scars of a hard weekend, feeling slightly sick too.

still going strong and loving the new job. it has been 7 months now. life is good, even apart from that. it is just that, i still miss that darn thing i cant place, find or ever have. or, ever be sure what it really is that i am looking for. either way, i have been missing it for years now. probably about 5 years, but, i would honestly never know.

back onto crunching code for the first time in months... 6 months to be exact. did not think i would miss it that much. struggling with this new tool, vc, vc from hell. for some odd reason i like it though. also trying to refrain from the double space after a sentence. it is harder than i thought, probably the closest i would ever come to stop smoking, or refraining from biting my finger tips. the tips yes, not the nails.

got a new pc, nice flat lcd display, must say it helps with the motivation towards work... helps a lot actually. i love my work, but sometimes i would still rather stay at home... most of the time.

got a good weekend ahead, can hardly wait. kloof as usual, but it just feels like it is going to be different this time round. loads of fun awaits me tomorrow.